This show is based on addiction recovery. Something I have a tremendous amount of experience with. I was addicted to just about anything and everything one could be addicted to for half of my life. I was one of the lucky few who lived to tell the tale.
That being said, I’ve always felt conflicted about revealing that side of myself, due to a few different factors: Shame and embarrassment being two of them. Fear of being judged, and not being taken seriously in business. Scaring off potential fashion students at my business, School of Style. Turns out, once I did some self-searching I found out that the reasons for keeping this part of my life neatly tucked away were all based in fear. You know what is so ironic about that discovery? Fear is one of the primary motivations for my addiction in the first place! I was terrified to live my life, so I eased the pain by using.
So here I am, on the brink of celebrating 20 years of sobriety and find myself afraid again. If I’ve learned anything in that 20 years, I’ve learned this: fear is not my friend. Fear is not real. Fear is not useful in most situations that don’t involve escaping actual danger. Like getting chased by a lion. Being authentic and vulnerable is not a lion. It just feels like it.
So when Anna asked me to be a guest on her recovery show, I made a decision to do it, knowing that I would likely spill the beans and get into some gory details about my highly checkered past.
And I did. In this interview, I discuss in an intimate manner how I have managed to escape the life of an addict and prosper in so many ways. I also reveal my newest area of personal development: relationships. It seems I still have a lot of work to do in this area, and I’m more than happy to admit it. As the saying goes, “to solve a problem, first you’ve got to admit you have a problem.”
I invite you to join me on this inner journey with Anna, and for god’s sake if you know anyone who has struggled with addiction, please share this episode with them. Forward this email right now. If I can help just one person overcome the challenges that I’ve managed to surmount, it makes all of this terrifying truth-telling worth it.
Thanks for listening.